Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 5
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s child. I am somebody! I am somebody through Jesus. “Can’t nobody do me like Jesus.” Now, don’t miss my heart on this issue. I don’t hate men and I don’t dislike men. It’s just that I am not dependent on a man to make me whole! I am whole through Jesus. Jesus does for me what no man could ever do for me. If I look to a man to do for me what only Jesus can do for me, I will be disappointed, frustrated, tired, worn out, fed up and disgusted. Looking in the wrong place. I am none of those things. I am happy, free, fulfilled, satisfied and whole. Jesus and the Father love me.
I know I’ve said this before but I’m gonna say it again. I don’t need you or anyone else to make me whole! I am whole through Jesus. I have confidence through Jesus. I have healthy self-esteem through Jesus. I am strong because of Jesus. I am emotionally and mentally stable through Jesus. I am a highly satisfied woman. I don’t need a reason or an excuse to be good to me. I am good to me… just because. I am good to me because I love me. I learned that from my Daddy. Father is good
to me just because He loves me. I am special. I am precious in my Father’s eyes. I am loved. I am still kickin’ and I am still here. Jesus is enough for me. I am whole. The Father loves me.
The spirit of agapé love reigns and rules in my life. I do not compare myself to anyone else. I do not compete with another woman or a man. I do not compete with another minister or ministry. The spirit of agapé love does not compete with anyone. Competition causes strife, disunity and division, which I am not. I exemplify agapé love because the spirit of agapé love lives inside of me. The spirit of agapé love leads me in the ways of righteousness. I am agapé love. Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I take after my Father. I am a love machine! Agapé love! Agapé love flows through me as easily as oxygen. I inhale agapé love through the Word; I exhale agapé love through my spirit man. I am known for my agapé love. John 13:34-35. My Father is teaching me and Jesus is my example. The Father loves me. I love myself and I love others with agapé love.
I am a love machine.
I am a love machine! Agapé love! The Father’s agapé love has made me whole. Sex didn’t, won’t and can’t make me whole. Being someone’s emotional doormat or their punching bag will not do it. Only the agapé love of my Father could make me whole. Father taught me that He loves me unconditionally and forever. Father taught me how to love myself unconditionally and forever. Now, I know how to love others unconditionally and forever with the same degree of agapé love which the Father loves me. The Father has turned me into Who and What He is – agapé love. Just like my Father, I am an agapé love machine!
I am a love machine! Agapé love! I have a tender heart. Ephesians 4:17-32. The Father is gracious with me. I am gracious with myself. I am gracious with others. I extend grace, mercy and compassion. I forgive. I have forgiven my ex-husband(s), pastors who didn’t know how to extend agapé love, former lady friends who abandoned me when the persecution came, the person who sexually assaulted me, parents who neglected me, and people who spoke derogatory racial comments toward me. I have already forgiven them. Every now and then phantom pains try to return but the incidents and the residue from them is already under the blood of Jesus.
It’s as if they never happened. Agapé love takes no account of a wrong and forgives. They are forgiven. Through the strength of the Father’s grace, I can extend agapé love.
I am agapé love. I don’t have an excuse for not exemplifying agapé love. Father has poured His agapé love into me. I will pour agapé love into others. I am an example of compassion, forgiveness, bowels of mercy and grace, tenderness, gentleness, longsuffering, kindness, understanding, patience and comfort to others. By grace, I can give what I have been given, agapé love. I give agapé love.
I am my Father’s daughter. The Father loves me and I love Him. I love the Word. The Word is my strength, my light, my hope and my sustenance. The Word is my life. When I’m frustrated, I read the Word. When I’m disappointed, hurt, rejected, wounded, mistreated, maligned or dishonored, I read the Word. The Word is my equilibrium. The Word places things in their proper perspective and puts everything in order. The Word and my faith can turn anything around and make it right. I love the Word, Jesus and the Father. I am my Father’s daughter.
I am my Father’s daughter. I belong to Jesus. Everything belongs to Jesus. Jesus is Lord over all of my body parts. From each strand of hair on my head down to the tip of my manicured toe nails. Since I belong to Jesus, I will not yield my body to unrighteousness. I will watch my words; I will watch what I say. I will. I will be an example of agapé love. I will extend grace, mercy, forgiveness, patience, honor and agapé love to others. As I behave like Jesus, my life will bring
glory to the Father. I am loved. I am forgiven. I am anointed. I am special. I am still here! I am my Father’s daughter. I am loved.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am healed and restored. The Father loves me.
What time is it? It’s time for some serious praise and worship! It’s time to go celebrate. I am still here! I may have some battle scars but I’m still standing. I may walk with a slight limp but I’m still walking. Father has been leading me and guiding me through it all. The Father has kept me through it all. I am still here by the Father’s grace. I will go celebrate who Father has made me to be and who I am in the process of becoming.
My heart is pure before God. I want my life to bring glory to the Father. I am nothing without Jesus. I will be nothing without Jesus. I will stick very close to Jesus. John 15:1-17. I need Jesus.
I have Jesus and I have the Father. I love Jesus and I love the Father. Jesus and the Father love me. I am not rejected; I am dearly loved. I am dependent on Jesus. I am my Father’s child.
I am loved. I am special. I am whole and delivered. I am happy and I am free. I have peace.
My Father loves me.
I Am My Father’s Child.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
I Am My Father's Child: Special Declarations for Women, Pt. 4
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 4
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
My Father loves me. Father tells me that if I need anything, He will provide it because He loves me. I have no reason to be afraid that my needs will not be supplied. I trust the Father and I trust His agapé love for me. Father’s love for me is perfect. Father’s love for me will never fail.
1 Corinthians 13:8. When I need something, I will pray, follow Father’s directions, instructions and wisdom, and wait for Father’s timing in the situation. Father is faithful and He loves me.
Because I am my Father’s child, I trust Father’s timing in my life. I trust Father to lead and guide me. I trust Father to bring into my life the people He wants to be in my life. I trust Father to bring increase and abundance into my life in His way. I trust Father’s timetable with all areas of my life. Father knows best. I trust the Father because the Father loves me.
The Father loves me. Every time I take communion I am reminded of how much the Father loves me. Father gave the best that He had to give, Jesus, because He loves me. John 3:16. Jesus shed His blood for me because the Father loves me. I am dearly loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am known for my agapé love. John 13:34-35. I am not emotionally abusive toward others. By the same token, I do not expect others to be emotionally abusive toward me. Emotional abuse does not reflect agapé love. If someone attempts to be or if they are emotionally abusive toward me, we may have to part ways. I am agapé love. Father loves me.
Because I trust Father’s agapé love for me, I have no fear. I have no fear. 1 John 4:18. I have no fear of people or people’s opinion of me. I have no fear of rejection, ridicule, rumors, lies, false accusations or persecution. People can say anything they want to say. People can think anything they want
to think. Those things don’t matter any more because I know who and what I am. I am free from fear. My days of being afraid of anyone or anything are over! I have no fear because I am loved. Fear? Not me. Regarding fear, I am free. I am not fearful; I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am not rejected; I am loved. The Father loves me. Just as I am… regardless of how much I weigh. There’s just more of me to love. (And, yes, I love me enough to lose the extra weight.)
I am a survivor. I have been through hell in my life. If it wasn’t for the grace of God I would have lost my mind a long time ago. If nobody else can tell you, I can tell you about the grace, goodness and faithfulness of God. Father never quit on me. The grace of God kept me and the grace of God brought me through everything I’ve been through. It was the grace of God that gave me the strength to endure everything. The grace of God put me over. I am still here today because
of the Father’s grace. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the Father is faithful. Father is faithful. I am loved. Father is faithful to me because He loves me.
The Father will never reject me. I am His daughter, His baby, and He loves me. Forever! I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I’ve done some things and I‘ve made some decisions that I regret. I have confessed my sins and mistakes and I have been forgiven. I have forgiven myself. Because I have been forgiven, those things are under the blood. My past is under the blood. My regrets are under the blood. My shame and sorrow are under the blood! When the enemy attempts to bring up stuff from the past, I will tell him, “Shut up, devil. That’s already under the blood
of Jesus. I will not allow you to talk about ( stuff ) because it no longer exists. It has been wiped away. It’s as if it never happened. So shut up and leave me alone. In Jesus’ name.”
I am my Father’s daughter. I will not be tormented by my past. The past is dead and gone. It’s over.I am here today and I am free today. I am here today! I am here right now. I will enjoy today. I will taste and enjoy every nuance of today – new grace, new mercy, new peace, new joy,the new oil, the new wine of the holy spirit, a new and fresh anointing, and a more powerful relationship with the Father. Daily I am learning more about the Father as He reveals more
of Himself to me. I want more. I crave more. I need more. Father is filling me up with more of Himself. Today I am hungry for more of the Father. I will be filled because Father loves me.
As my Father’s daughter, I will continue to develop in agapé love. I will go with the flow of Father’s wisdom, might, strength, power and agapé love. I have my Father’s nature and I take after the Father. I extend agapé love to others, the same agapé love that the Father extends toward me. I can give to others what I have received, agapé love. I am a child of love. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I have my Father’s wisdom. The Spirit of Wisdom operates in my life. Spirit speaks. I am continually developing in wisdom because I listen. The Father teaches me wisdom. I gleam wisdom from the Word. I am increasing in wisdom because I take after the Father. I am my Father’s daughter and I am loved. I have wisdom. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am whole. As my Father’s daughter, I have my Father’s wisdom. I am responsible for my life, my choices and my decisions. I value my wholeness. I make wise choices which supplement and complement the value of my wholeness. I do not look back or think back. I look ahead. I live today to the fullest, squeezing every drop of life out of it. I look forward to tomorrow. As I go forward in step-by-step wisdom, trusting in the Father, leaning on Jesus,
relying on the Father’s Voice, obeying Father’s directions and trusting the Father, I’m gonna be fine. How could I not be? I am my Father’s daughter. I am dearly loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am precious. I have value. When I look in the mirror, I like what I see. For years, I mean many years - almost 25 years - I wouldn’t look in the mirror. I mean really
look at myself in the mirror. Oh, I would do a cursory look when I brushed my teeth, combed my hair, or checked my clothes to ensure my dress wasn’t pulled up and stuck in my pantyhose and my underwear wasn’t showing. But, now I can look in the mirror at me. Now I love my self. Now, I can see me. I can bear to see all of me. Now, I like me. Now, I love me. The Father has taught me how to love me. I love myself the same way my Father loves me, with agapé love. I am loved, therefore I love. I am loved. I am dearly loved. I am. The Father loves me.
By the Father’s grace, I am me. There is only one me. There is no one else on the earth like me. When Father made me, He really broke the mold. I accept me as I am, with all of my idiosyncrasies, uniqueness, diverseness, talents and warped sense of humor. I will not compare myself, my gifts, my grace and my anointings to anyone else. Father made me. Father likes me just the way I am. Father loves me just as I am. I love me just as I am. I am loved and accepted. Father loves me.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 4
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
My Father loves me. Father tells me that if I need anything, He will provide it because He loves me. I have no reason to be afraid that my needs will not be supplied. I trust the Father and I trust His agapé love for me. Father’s love for me is perfect. Father’s love for me will never fail.
1 Corinthians 13:8. When I need something, I will pray, follow Father’s directions, instructions and wisdom, and wait for Father’s timing in the situation. Father is faithful and He loves me.
Because I am my Father’s child, I trust Father’s timing in my life. I trust Father to lead and guide me. I trust Father to bring into my life the people He wants to be in my life. I trust Father to bring increase and abundance into my life in His way. I trust Father’s timetable with all areas of my life. Father knows best. I trust the Father because the Father loves me.
The Father loves me. Every time I take communion I am reminded of how much the Father loves me. Father gave the best that He had to give, Jesus, because He loves me. John 3:16. Jesus shed His blood for me because the Father loves me. I am dearly loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am known for my agapé love. John 13:34-35. I am not emotionally abusive toward others. By the same token, I do not expect others to be emotionally abusive toward me. Emotional abuse does not reflect agapé love. If someone attempts to be or if they are emotionally abusive toward me, we may have to part ways. I am agapé love. Father loves me.
Because I trust Father’s agapé love for me, I have no fear. I have no fear. 1 John 4:18. I have no fear of people or people’s opinion of me. I have no fear of rejection, ridicule, rumors, lies, false accusations or persecution. People can say anything they want to say. People can think anything they want
to think. Those things don’t matter any more because I know who and what I am. I am free from fear. My days of being afraid of anyone or anything are over! I have no fear because I am loved. Fear? Not me. Regarding fear, I am free. I am not fearful; I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am not rejected; I am loved. The Father loves me. Just as I am… regardless of how much I weigh. There’s just more of me to love. (And, yes, I love me enough to lose the extra weight.)
I am a survivor. I have been through hell in my life. If it wasn’t for the grace of God I would have lost my mind a long time ago. If nobody else can tell you, I can tell you about the grace, goodness and faithfulness of God. Father never quit on me. The grace of God kept me and the grace of God brought me through everything I’ve been through. It was the grace of God that gave me the strength to endure everything. The grace of God put me over. I am still here today because
of the Father’s grace. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the Father is faithful. Father is faithful. I am loved. Father is faithful to me because He loves me.
The Father will never reject me. I am His daughter, His baby, and He loves me. Forever! I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I’ve done some things and I‘ve made some decisions that I regret. I have confessed my sins and mistakes and I have been forgiven. I have forgiven myself. Because I have been forgiven, those things are under the blood. My past is under the blood. My regrets are under the blood. My shame and sorrow are under the blood! When the enemy attempts to bring up stuff from the past, I will tell him, “Shut up, devil. That’s already under the blood
of Jesus. I will not allow you to talk about ( stuff ) because it no longer exists. It has been wiped away. It’s as if it never happened. So shut up and leave me alone. In Jesus’ name.”
I am my Father’s daughter. I will not be tormented by my past. The past is dead and gone. It’s over.I am here today and I am free today. I am here today! I am here right now. I will enjoy today. I will taste and enjoy every nuance of today – new grace, new mercy, new peace, new joy,the new oil, the new wine of the holy spirit, a new and fresh anointing, and a more powerful relationship with the Father. Daily I am learning more about the Father as He reveals more
of Himself to me. I want more. I crave more. I need more. Father is filling me up with more of Himself. Today I am hungry for more of the Father. I will be filled because Father loves me.
As my Father’s daughter, I will continue to develop in agapé love. I will go with the flow of Father’s wisdom, might, strength, power and agapé love. I have my Father’s nature and I take after the Father. I extend agapé love to others, the same agapé love that the Father extends toward me. I can give to others what I have received, agapé love. I am a child of love. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I have my Father’s wisdom. The Spirit of Wisdom operates in my life. Spirit speaks. I am continually developing in wisdom because I listen. The Father teaches me wisdom. I gleam wisdom from the Word. I am increasing in wisdom because I take after the Father. I am my Father’s daughter and I am loved. I have wisdom. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am whole. As my Father’s daughter, I have my Father’s wisdom. I am responsible for my life, my choices and my decisions. I value my wholeness. I make wise choices which supplement and complement the value of my wholeness. I do not look back or think back. I look ahead. I live today to the fullest, squeezing every drop of life out of it. I look forward to tomorrow. As I go forward in step-by-step wisdom, trusting in the Father, leaning on Jesus,
relying on the Father’s Voice, obeying Father’s directions and trusting the Father, I’m gonna be fine. How could I not be? I am my Father’s daughter. I am dearly loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am precious. I have value. When I look in the mirror, I like what I see. For years, I mean many years - almost 25 years - I wouldn’t look in the mirror. I mean really
look at myself in the mirror. Oh, I would do a cursory look when I brushed my teeth, combed my hair, or checked my clothes to ensure my dress wasn’t pulled up and stuck in my pantyhose and my underwear wasn’t showing. But, now I can look in the mirror at me. Now I love my self. Now, I can see me. I can bear to see all of me. Now, I like me. Now, I love me. The Father has taught me how to love me. I love myself the same way my Father loves me, with agapé love. I am loved, therefore I love. I am loved. I am dearly loved. I am. The Father loves me.
By the Father’s grace, I am me. There is only one me. There is no one else on the earth like me. When Father made me, He really broke the mold. I accept me as I am, with all of my idiosyncrasies, uniqueness, diverseness, talents and warped sense of humor. I will not compare myself, my gifts, my grace and my anointings to anyone else. Father made me. Father likes me just the way I am. Father loves me just as I am. I love me just as I am. I am loved and accepted. Father loves me.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
I Am My father's Child: special Declarations for Women, Pt. 3
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 3
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken.
I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am whole through Jesus. Because I am whole through Jesus, I am not compelled to be made whole through a relationship with another person. I am complete in Christ.
Colossians 2:10.
I am complete through the blood of Jesus. I am complete through the spirit. A relationship with a person other than Jesus will not and cannot make me whole. My relationships with others are extra blessings, the cherry on top, but my relationship with Jesus and the Father is my foundation. I am yoked to the True Vine. John 15:1-17.
I go to the Father to receive; I go to others to give and serve. I am my Father’s daughter and I am whole through and in Jesus.
I am whole through Jesus. Because I am whole through Jesus, I am not clingy, needy or emotionally dependent on others for fulfillment or happiness. I am satisfied all by myself, as long as I have me some Jesus! I am not complete through a man, other than Jesus! If I never have another serious relationship with a man that would be OK. I am more than satisfied because Jesus is enough. My soul is satisfied. Jesus has given me what no other man or person can! I am happy. I am free from relationship addiction. I am satisfied, I am content and I am whole. Father loves me.
I am coming up and out! I am headed toward new levels, new heights, new depths and abundance in all areas of my life. John 10:10. Because the Father loves me, He will lead me and guide me toward and into my abundant place. I acknowledge the Father in all ways and He will lead and guide me into all that He is. I am coming up and out! Nothing old, used or worn out; everything will be new. My source for everything new is my relationship with the Father. My Father is bringing me up and out for no other reason than He loves me! My Father wants nothing less than the best for me. By His grace He will provide the best for me. I am coming up and out! The Father loves me.
I am starting over. Yes, I may have gone through the “Big D”, divorce, but I am still here! I’m still standing and I’m getting stronger every day. Divorce is not the end but a new beginning. The divorce was painful but Father’s grace and agapé love brought me through it. I am back and I’m more motivated and stronger than ever. The blood of Jesus is still working. I am a
living testimony that you can go through a divorce and come out better and stronger on the other side. I learned that I have a high tolerance for pain and with Father’s grace I can overcome anything! Look out world! Here comes a healed, restored, renewed, replenished, rejuvenated, on-fire, looking for some devil butt to kick, satisfied single woman! It’s all good. The Father brought me through the divorce and He will bring me through anything because He loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter and I am loved by my Father. My life is turning around. There’s no place to go but up! I’ve been down too many times and my down days are over. Yes, there will be challenges, tests, trials, temptations and seasons where I will have to stretch toward new growth. I’ve already accepted that I can’t succeed on my own. I will have to hold on to Jesus. I will have
to pull on Jesus’ strength. By my Father’s grace and with Jesus on my side, I will endure and overcome. I am an overcomer. My Father leads me in the way that I should go. I listen to the Father and obey Him. I will always win because I am my Father’s child and my Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter and I am a whole woman. I am more important than the size of my boobs or the width of my derrière. My female genitalia are not more valuable than me, nor do they take precedence over me. I have more value than the sum of my body parts. I am not a body part. I am a person, a whole person, a whole woman. I will not allow anyone to treat me like a body part. I will not allow anyone to dishonor or disrespect me, like something to be used, discarded and thrown away. And, you cannot purchase me. I am not for sale, like a used car over which you bargained for the cheapest price. No! I am a whole person who is worthy of honor. I am a whole woman who has value. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am a whole woman. My Father loves me.
I have to repeat this: Jesus’ blood has set me free. I am as free as free can be. Because I am free, I make quality decisions which are healthy for my soul, my spirit and my life. I am not bound by anyone
and I am not bound to anyone. I am free! I will not allow anyone to put me in bondage through their fear. I am free from fear. Since I have been set free from fear, others’ fears have no influence on my life. I will not be controlled by others and others’ fears will not put me in bondage. There is no fear here. I am free. Jesus’ blood has set me free. I am as free as free can be. Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am a healed woman. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter and I am obedient. Because Father loves me, I trust Him with my life. Because I trust Him with my life, I will be obedient to the Father in all things. Father’s agapé love toward me and in response my love for the Father leads me to be obedient. I am obedient. Father loves me.
I am free! I am free from manipulation, coercion, intimidation, control, emotional blackmail and the fear of being alone. I am not dependent on a man, nor am I obsessed with having a man in my life. Being alone doesn’t bother me because I am complete and I am whole. I like me. I am not afraid
to be alone with me. I can be alone with me and be just as happy… I am never alone; I have Jesus. Being alone isn’t a death sentence because I have the spirit of life inside of me. I am not desperate for male or female companionship. I am a highly satisfied woman and I am free. Get this: Every piece and part of me is free! Freedom oozes from my pores. I am free! The Father loves me.
I am emotionally healthy and emotionally stable. I am not ruled by my emotions. I am ruled by Christ Who lives in me and the spirit of agapé love. Christ and the spirit of agapé love are at the helm of my life and they determine my course. I have forfeited my control to them. I simply go with the flow. Father, Christ and the spirit of agapé love lead while I follow. It’s OK. I trust them.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am not depressed. When I sense depression attempting to creep up on me, I will declare, “No! I am not depressed. I am delivered. I am healed. I am free. Jesus carried this depression to the cross. Jesus shed His blood for this. I will not allow depression in my life. I am under the blood of Jesus. My emotions are under the blood of Jesus. My mind and my heart are under the blood of Jesus. My sanity is under the blood of Jesus. Jesus carried this depression for me so I don’t have to. Jesus has freed me from depression. I am free! In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
The Father is my Teacher. He is teaching me all about His agapé love. I am learning that when I walk in agapé love I cannot lose because agapé love always works and it always wins. I may not see it working and winning but I know that it is. Agapé love works in the unseen, invisible, intangible
realm. When I think agapé love isn’t working, it is working. Father IS agapé love. Father is always working in the unseen, invisible, intangible realm on my behalf. I trust Father and I trust agapé love. I trust that agapé love will always work. I trust the Father because He loves me.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 3
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken.
I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am whole through Jesus. Because I am whole through Jesus, I am not compelled to be made whole through a relationship with another person. I am complete in Christ.
Colossians 2:10.
I am complete through the blood of Jesus. I am complete through the spirit. A relationship with a person other than Jesus will not and cannot make me whole. My relationships with others are extra blessings, the cherry on top, but my relationship with Jesus and the Father is my foundation. I am yoked to the True Vine. John 15:1-17.
I go to the Father to receive; I go to others to give and serve. I am my Father’s daughter and I am whole through and in Jesus.
I am whole through Jesus. Because I am whole through Jesus, I am not clingy, needy or emotionally dependent on others for fulfillment or happiness. I am satisfied all by myself, as long as I have me some Jesus! I am not complete through a man, other than Jesus! If I never have another serious relationship with a man that would be OK. I am more than satisfied because Jesus is enough. My soul is satisfied. Jesus has given me what no other man or person can! I am happy. I am free from relationship addiction. I am satisfied, I am content and I am whole. Father loves me.
I am coming up and out! I am headed toward new levels, new heights, new depths and abundance in all areas of my life. John 10:10. Because the Father loves me, He will lead me and guide me toward and into my abundant place. I acknowledge the Father in all ways and He will lead and guide me into all that He is. I am coming up and out! Nothing old, used or worn out; everything will be new. My source for everything new is my relationship with the Father. My Father is bringing me up and out for no other reason than He loves me! My Father wants nothing less than the best for me. By His grace He will provide the best for me. I am coming up and out! The Father loves me.
I am starting over. Yes, I may have gone through the “Big D”, divorce, but I am still here! I’m still standing and I’m getting stronger every day. Divorce is not the end but a new beginning. The divorce was painful but Father’s grace and agapé love brought me through it. I am back and I’m more motivated and stronger than ever. The blood of Jesus is still working. I am a
living testimony that you can go through a divorce and come out better and stronger on the other side. I learned that I have a high tolerance for pain and with Father’s grace I can overcome anything! Look out world! Here comes a healed, restored, renewed, replenished, rejuvenated, on-fire, looking for some devil butt to kick, satisfied single woman! It’s all good. The Father brought me through the divorce and He will bring me through anything because He loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter and I am loved by my Father. My life is turning around. There’s no place to go but up! I’ve been down too many times and my down days are over. Yes, there will be challenges, tests, trials, temptations and seasons where I will have to stretch toward new growth. I’ve already accepted that I can’t succeed on my own. I will have to hold on to Jesus. I will have
to pull on Jesus’ strength. By my Father’s grace and with Jesus on my side, I will endure and overcome. I am an overcomer. My Father leads me in the way that I should go. I listen to the Father and obey Him. I will always win because I am my Father’s child and my Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter and I am a whole woman. I am more important than the size of my boobs or the width of my derrière. My female genitalia are not more valuable than me, nor do they take precedence over me. I have more value than the sum of my body parts. I am not a body part. I am a person, a whole person, a whole woman. I will not allow anyone to treat me like a body part. I will not allow anyone to dishonor or disrespect me, like something to be used, discarded and thrown away. And, you cannot purchase me. I am not for sale, like a used car over which you bargained for the cheapest price. No! I am a whole person who is worthy of honor. I am a whole woman who has value. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am a whole woman. My Father loves me.
I have to repeat this: Jesus’ blood has set me free. I am as free as free can be. Because I am free, I make quality decisions which are healthy for my soul, my spirit and my life. I am not bound by anyone
and I am not bound to anyone. I am free! I will not allow anyone to put me in bondage through their fear. I am free from fear. Since I have been set free from fear, others’ fears have no influence on my life. I will not be controlled by others and others’ fears will not put me in bondage. There is no fear here. I am free. Jesus’ blood has set me free. I am as free as free can be. Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am a healed woman. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter and I am obedient. Because Father loves me, I trust Him with my life. Because I trust Him with my life, I will be obedient to the Father in all things. Father’s agapé love toward me and in response my love for the Father leads me to be obedient. I am obedient. Father loves me.
I am free! I am free from manipulation, coercion, intimidation, control, emotional blackmail and the fear of being alone. I am not dependent on a man, nor am I obsessed with having a man in my life. Being alone doesn’t bother me because I am complete and I am whole. I like me. I am not afraid
to be alone with me. I can be alone with me and be just as happy… I am never alone; I have Jesus. Being alone isn’t a death sentence because I have the spirit of life inside of me. I am not desperate for male or female companionship. I am a highly satisfied woman and I am free. Get this: Every piece and part of me is free! Freedom oozes from my pores. I am free! The Father loves me.
I am emotionally healthy and emotionally stable. I am not ruled by my emotions. I am ruled by Christ Who lives in me and the spirit of agapé love. Christ and the spirit of agapé love are at the helm of my life and they determine my course. I have forfeited my control to them. I simply go with the flow. Father, Christ and the spirit of agapé love lead while I follow. It’s OK. I trust them.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am not depressed. When I sense depression attempting to creep up on me, I will declare, “No! I am not depressed. I am delivered. I am healed. I am free. Jesus carried this depression to the cross. Jesus shed His blood for this. I will not allow depression in my life. I am under the blood of Jesus. My emotions are under the blood of Jesus. My mind and my heart are under the blood of Jesus. My sanity is under the blood of Jesus. Jesus carried this depression for me so I don’t have to. Jesus has freed me from depression. I am free! In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
The Father is my Teacher. He is teaching me all about His agapé love. I am learning that when I walk in agapé love I cannot lose because agapé love always works and it always wins. I may not see it working and winning but I know that it is. Agapé love works in the unseen, invisible, intangible
realm. When I think agapé love isn’t working, it is working. Father IS agapé love. Father is always working in the unseen, invisible, intangible realm on my behalf. I trust Father and I trust agapé love. I trust that agapé love will always work. I trust the Father because He loves me.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436, Pt. 2, By Janet Henderson
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 2
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s child. My life is not chaotic. I am not addicted to chaos and drama. I crave peace. I need peace in my life. The longer I live the more I realize that I need and crave Jesus’ peace. I’ve already been through enough hell to last a lifetime. I no longer make choices which reproduce the chaos and drama of my former life. I make choices that supplement Jesus’ peace in my life. I value peace. I have peace through the blood of Jesus and I value Jesus’ peace more than anything else. If you bring chaos, drama and trauma into my personal life, you’ve got to go! I have Jesus and I have peace because my Father loves me.
I am my Father’s woman-child. I will honor myself. With all of my other duties and responsibilities, I will not neglect myself or my personal needs. I will not put everyone else’s needs above my own to my detriment. Loving others does not mean that I have to neglect or abuse myself. I will love myself with agapé love just as much as I love others with agapé love. Today I give myself permission to love myself. Today I agapé love myself. Not because I am good enough. Not because I earned it. Not because I deserve it. (I don’t deserve anything. Everything that I have is by Father’s grace.) Today I agapé love myself because the Father agapé loves me. I am loved. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s woman-child.
I am my Father’s woman. I am a child of my Father. I am not those ugly, derogatory names I’ve been called in the past; the “w” word (who--), the “s” word (sl--), the other “s” word (stupid) or the “b” word (bi---). I do not identify with those words. I am not those things and I will not respond to those words. I identify with these words; “W” for whole, “S” for sanctified and “B” for brand new. Jesus gave me a new identity. As I renew my mind to what the Word says, I am becoming more whole, more sanctified and more brand new every day. Every day is a new day to become more like Jesus. I believe it. I am new today. I am a new woman today and my Father loves me.
I am my Father’s woman-child. My Father loves me. Because my Father loves me, I will not allow others to abuse me mentally, emotionally, psychologically, physically or spiritually. I am worthy of so much more than abuse. I value myself too much to allow myself to be abused or mistreated. I do not abuse myself and I will not allow anyone else to abuse me either. My Father has taught me how to love myself. I love myself too much to permit abuse of any type in my life. I embrace agapé love and I give agapé love. I am loved. I love myself. No more abuse. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s woman but I am not limited to being only a woman. I am a spirit. Because I am a spirit, please do not attempt to tell me what I can and cannot do in the Kingdom. I will not be controlled by your warped and limited perceptions of what I am and who I will become. Your perceptions do not determine my reality. Your error is not my truth. Jesus is my example and my sources are the Word and agapé love which operate through my faith. Agapé love and faith have no limits so
I have no limits, as long as I live agapé love and stand in faith. No limits. Go put that in your pipe and smoke it! I have no limits through agapé love, faith and the Father’s grace. Agapé love, faith and grace– it’s all good. The Father is faithful and He is good. Father IS love and He loves me.
I am not rejected; I am clean. I am my Father’s daughter. I have been forgiven. I am not worm out and used up. I have been restored and renewed. My previous lifestyle has been forgiven, cleansed and washed away. Through the blood of Jesus, like Mary Magdalene I am clean, forgiven and whole. Jesus loved Mary Magdalene and Jesus loves me. I am a new woman and my Father loves me.
The Father is my Friend. He is my bestest Friend. When there was no one to help me, Father was there. When I needed someone to talk to, Father was there. When I needed someone to lean on, Jesus was there. When I need someone to listen, Father listens. When I think I’m all alone, I’m never alone – Jesus is here. Father is agapé love and I have agapé love living and breathing on the inside of me. Father is always here. Father is my Friend and He loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s daughter. Sometimes the enemy tells me that I am not good enough to be loved by the Father. For once, he is right. I am not good enough to be loved by the Father but I don’t have to be good enough to be loved by my Father. The Father loves me unconditionally. My Father loves me because He IS love. 1 John 4:8The Father’s love is unconditional and unearnable. I can rest in my Father’s agapé love. I am so thankful for my Father’s love. I am loved. I am loved. I am loved. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am healed and whole. The Father loves me.
I am a woman of great value. I will not minimize my value. I will not allow anyone else to minimize my value. In the past, I allowed others to minimize and devalue me. No more! In the past, I allowed others to love me only to the degree that I loved myself. I didn’t agapé love myself so others could not agapé love me either. But, today is a new day. I agapé love myself. I agapé love others. I agapé love others without expecting anything from them in return. This may seem one-sided but it isn’t. Agapé love is a seed. As I agape love others, I am sowing seeds of agapé love. The agapé love seed that I sow will come back to me. If the harvest doesn’t come from another person, the harvest will come from the Father. Agapé love never fails. Because I live agapé love, I am of great value to my Father. I am dearly loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. Because Father loves me, He has loosed me from the chains of bondage and addictions which previously held me captive. I did things that I didn’t want to do. But, now I am free! I am no longer a slave to unhealthy desires. I am free! When I say “No!”, through Father’s grace and Jesus’ strength I can walk away. I don’t give in to temptation. I am free! Temptations do not control me. Lust does not control me. Poor choices do not control me. Chocolate ice cream and strawberry cheesecake do not control me. I am free! My Father’s agapé love has set me free!
I am not rejected; I am loved. I am free! I am sexually whole and healthy. I no longer have to be ashamed of what I did last night. Father has delivered me from the roller coaster ride of up-and-down behavior associated with a sex addiction. I am sexually healthy, clean, pure and free. When I look in the mirror, I like what I see. I like me. There were too many years when I didn’t like me but now because of Father’s grace and the blood of Jesus, I like me. I am so thankful that the Father
has set me free. I couldn’t get myself out but Father brought me out, delivered me, made me whole and set me free. I am free! The Father loves me.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 2
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s child. My life is not chaotic. I am not addicted to chaos and drama. I crave peace. I need peace in my life. The longer I live the more I realize that I need and crave Jesus’ peace. I’ve already been through enough hell to last a lifetime. I no longer make choices which reproduce the chaos and drama of my former life. I make choices that supplement Jesus’ peace in my life. I value peace. I have peace through the blood of Jesus and I value Jesus’ peace more than anything else. If you bring chaos, drama and trauma into my personal life, you’ve got to go! I have Jesus and I have peace because my Father loves me.
I am my Father’s woman-child. I will honor myself. With all of my other duties and responsibilities, I will not neglect myself or my personal needs. I will not put everyone else’s needs above my own to my detriment. Loving others does not mean that I have to neglect or abuse myself. I will love myself with agapé love just as much as I love others with agapé love. Today I give myself permission to love myself. Today I agapé love myself. Not because I am good enough. Not because I earned it. Not because I deserve it. (I don’t deserve anything. Everything that I have is by Father’s grace.) Today I agapé love myself because the Father agapé loves me. I am loved. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s woman-child.
I am my Father’s woman. I am a child of my Father. I am not those ugly, derogatory names I’ve been called in the past; the “w” word (who--), the “s” word (sl--), the other “s” word (stupid) or the “b” word (bi---). I do not identify with those words. I am not those things and I will not respond to those words. I identify with these words; “W” for whole, “S” for sanctified and “B” for brand new. Jesus gave me a new identity. As I renew my mind to what the Word says, I am becoming more whole, more sanctified and more brand new every day. Every day is a new day to become more like Jesus. I believe it. I am new today. I am a new woman today and my Father loves me.
I am my Father’s woman-child. My Father loves me. Because my Father loves me, I will not allow others to abuse me mentally, emotionally, psychologically, physically or spiritually. I am worthy of so much more than abuse. I value myself too much to allow myself to be abused or mistreated. I do not abuse myself and I will not allow anyone else to abuse me either. My Father has taught me how to love myself. I love myself too much to permit abuse of any type in my life. I embrace agapé love and I give agapé love. I am loved. I love myself. No more abuse. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s woman but I am not limited to being only a woman. I am a spirit. Because I am a spirit, please do not attempt to tell me what I can and cannot do in the Kingdom. I will not be controlled by your warped and limited perceptions of what I am and who I will become. Your perceptions do not determine my reality. Your error is not my truth. Jesus is my example and my sources are the Word and agapé love which operate through my faith. Agapé love and faith have no limits so
I have no limits, as long as I live agapé love and stand in faith. No limits. Go put that in your pipe and smoke it! I have no limits through agapé love, faith and the Father’s grace. Agapé love, faith and grace– it’s all good. The Father is faithful and He is good. Father IS love and He loves me.
I am not rejected; I am clean. I am my Father’s daughter. I have been forgiven. I am not worm out and used up. I have been restored and renewed. My previous lifestyle has been forgiven, cleansed and washed away. Through the blood of Jesus, like Mary Magdalene I am clean, forgiven and whole. Jesus loved Mary Magdalene and Jesus loves me. I am a new woman and my Father loves me.
The Father is my Friend. He is my bestest Friend. When there was no one to help me, Father was there. When I needed someone to talk to, Father was there. When I needed someone to lean on, Jesus was there. When I need someone to listen, Father listens. When I think I’m all alone, I’m never alone – Jesus is here. Father is agapé love and I have agapé love living and breathing on the inside of me. Father is always here. Father is my Friend and He loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s daughter. Sometimes the enemy tells me that I am not good enough to be loved by the Father. For once, he is right. I am not good enough to be loved by the Father but I don’t have to be good enough to be loved by my Father. The Father loves me unconditionally. My Father loves me because He IS love. 1 John 4:8The Father’s love is unconditional and unearnable. I can rest in my Father’s agapé love. I am so thankful for my Father’s love. I am loved. I am loved. I am loved. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s daughter. I am not rejected; I am loved. I am healed and whole. The Father loves me.
I am a woman of great value. I will not minimize my value. I will not allow anyone else to minimize my value. In the past, I allowed others to minimize and devalue me. No more! In the past, I allowed others to love me only to the degree that I loved myself. I didn’t agapé love myself so others could not agapé love me either. But, today is a new day. I agapé love myself. I agapé love others. I agapé love others without expecting anything from them in return. This may seem one-sided but it isn’t. Agapé love is a seed. As I agape love others, I am sowing seeds of agapé love. The agapé love seed that I sow will come back to me. If the harvest doesn’t come from another person, the harvest will come from the Father. Agapé love never fails. Because I live agapé love, I am of great value to my Father. I am dearly loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. Because Father loves me, He has loosed me from the chains of bondage and addictions which previously held me captive. I did things that I didn’t want to do. But, now I am free! I am no longer a slave to unhealthy desires. I am free! When I say “No!”, through Father’s grace and Jesus’ strength I can walk away. I don’t give in to temptation. I am free! Temptations do not control me. Lust does not control me. Poor choices do not control me. Chocolate ice cream and strawberry cheesecake do not control me. I am free! My Father’s agapé love has set me free!
I am not rejected; I am loved. I am free! I am sexually whole and healthy. I no longer have to be ashamed of what I did last night. Father has delivered me from the roller coaster ride of up-and-down behavior associated with a sex addiction. I am sexually healthy, clean, pure and free. When I look in the mirror, I like what I see. I like me. There were too many years when I didn’t like me but now because of Father’s grace and the blood of Jesus, I like me. I am so thankful that the Father
has set me free. I couldn’t get myself out but Father brought me out, delivered me, made me whole and set me free. I am free! The Father loves me.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Friday, June 25, 2010
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #436
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 1
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
[My sisters, it’s time! This is a slow chew. Digest thoroughly. This is strong and powerful. It will cut deeply - in a good way. Some of these will make you laugh; others will make you cry. It’s OK.
The Father’s grace will keep you. In the midst of your tears, agapé love will be delivering you, healing you, cleaning you up, cleaning you out, restoring you and setting you free. Through it all the blood will be working. Get ready! Enjoy. JH]
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole.
I am my Father’s child. I am a woman of value. I will honor and respect myself. I love myself to the same degree and depth with which the Father loves me. I am loved. I am my Father’s child. I am special. I am not rejected. I am accepted.
I am my Father’s child. I made mistakes in the past. I exercised poor judgment and made some poor choices which affected me for many years. I have accepted responsibility for my decisions and their consequences. I forgive me and I still love myself. I am loved. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child. The Father is gracious with me and I am gracious with myself.
I am my Father’s child. Because I trust Father, I will not second-guess His decisions or His choices for my life. I trust Father’s timing in all areas of my life. I may not understand Father’s timing and I may not like Father’s timing but I trust His timing. I trust the Father. I trust Father’s judgment for my life. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s woman. I will not have friends, associates or acquaintances that devalue, dishonor or disrespect me. I honor myself. I honor the Christ inside of me. I attract people into my life
who honor me and who honor the Christ in me. I am worthy of honor. I will not tolerate abuse of any type from anyone because I am my Father’s woman. I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am single-focused. I am not distracted by the past. I live in the present and I have hope for the future. My previous sins are not who or what I am. Through the blood of Jesus, I am pure, I am clean, I am holy and I am whole. My sins have been washed away. Jesus’ blood has made me whole.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am all woman. 100% woman. I am not limited to my individual body parts. I am more than the individual pieces of my body. I am more than the sum of all of my body parts.
I am not a sex object, something to be goggled over, played with and groped, a toy for someone’s selfish, lustful satisfaction. I respect myself and I will be respected. I am not part woman; I am all woman! I am a whole woman, a complete woman, a fulfilled woman. I am my Father’s beloved. I am a loved woman. I am my Father’s child. I am not rejected; I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I do not identify with my previous poor choices. I identify with the blood of Jesus. I am bigger than my mistakes. I have been forgiven. I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am a whole person and I live my life in balance. I do not focus on one part of my life to the detriment or neglect of other parts of my life. My life is balanced. I live in balance. In the past I tolerated abuse of various types but no more. Before I didn’t know any better but now
I know better and I will not tolerate abuse from anyone. Today I am whole. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am a whole person. I am not my boobs or my butt or my female genitalia. I am not divided into sub-parts or subordinate pieces where one piece has more value than another piece. I am a whole person, a whole woman. As a whole woman, my individual parts have value but my parts do not have more value than me. I value, I honor and I respect myself as a whole person. I like me. I love me. I love me with unconditional agapé love. Father loves me with unconditional agapé love. I will honor and respect all of me. I am loved – all of me. The Father loves me.
I am not rejected. I am my Father’s daughter and I forgive myself. In the past, I made many mistakes. I abused my soul and my body. I caused my own soul wounds. I have confessed my sins. Father forgave me and I forgave myself. Sometimes I have flashbacks, memories, snippets from my past. I quietly talk to myself, reminding myself that my previous sins and mistakes are already under
the blood of Jesus. I tell the enemy that he cannot bring up things from my past which have already been washed away by the blood. In the Father’s eyes those things never happened. I am free from all guilt. I am free from all shame. I am a new person. I am free. My Father loves me.
I am beginning to understand that I have some major control issues. I have control issues because I have serious trust issues. These control and trust issues are residue from the drama and trauma from rejections, invasions or violations. [People are obsessive control freaks because of trauma, unhealed wounds and fear.] When these incidents occurred, I lacked control over them and wasn’t able to stop them. What I couldn’t control then, I am attempting to control now but this isn’t fair to my ‘now’ life. The people who hurt me then are not the same people I am attempting to control now. I can’t control others. Trying to control others is self-defeating. People must be free to live their own life. I have been attempting to alleviate the pain from the past by controlling the present.
This hasn’t worked very well. While attempting to find balance and appear normal, I have been causing strife, chaos and confusion all around me. I have been reproducing my internal trauma by recreating it through ongoing, external drama. It’s emotional and psychological tit-for-tat, a game which no one wins. In an unhealthy attempt to hide and run from my trauma, I’ve been pushing other people’s buttons and driving many of those around me almost crazy. My internal turmoil will be reduced and alleviated only through the Word and mature agapé love.
Because of the Word and through the Father’s agapé love, I am learning that I’ve been in pain all of these years. I’ve been emotionally vomiting all over others. It isn’t my heart to be a pushy, overbearing, obsessive, emotionally manipulative control freak but that’s how I’ve been behaving.
Borderline obnoxious. In pain, I caused pain for others. I need to apologize for my behavior. While in the throes of pain and trauma, I’ve been pushing away from me the very thing I need the most – people. Pain often causes you to do strange things. Father’s agapé love will heal me.
Now that I understand why I do what I do, I acknowledge that I need to make some major changes. Today I make a commitment to myself that I will face, deal with and overcome the trauma from my personal drama. I will no longer transfer my unresolved emotional issues and pain onto others. I will accept Father’s agapé love. Father ministers His agapé love and healing through His people. Father will send someone to help me because He loves me. Father’s agapé love will heal me as
I allow others to minister agapé love to me. When they show up, I will Trust the Anointing.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Subject: I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women, Part 1
Theme verse: Agapé Love Never Fails. 1 Corinthians 13:8
[My sisters, it’s time! This is a slow chew. Digest thoroughly. This is strong and powerful. It will cut deeply - in a good way. Some of these will make you laugh; others will make you cry. It’s OK.
The Father’s grace will keep you. In the midst of your tears, agapé love will be delivering you, healing you, cleaning you up, cleaning you out, restoring you and setting you free. Through it all the blood will be working. Get ready! Enjoy. JH]
I Am My Father’s Child: Special Declarations for Women
I am my Father’s child. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I am whole. I was broken in my soul at one time but I am no longer broken. I am no longer splintered. I am whole.
I am my Father’s child. I am a woman of value. I will honor and respect myself. I love myself to the same degree and depth with which the Father loves me. I am loved. I am my Father’s child. I am special. I am not rejected. I am accepted.
I am my Father’s child. I made mistakes in the past. I exercised poor judgment and made some poor choices which affected me for many years. I have accepted responsibility for my decisions and their consequences. I forgive me and I still love myself. I am loved. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child. The Father is gracious with me and I am gracious with myself.
I am my Father’s child. Because I trust Father, I will not second-guess His decisions or His choices for my life. I trust Father’s timing in all areas of my life. I may not understand Father’s timing and I may not like Father’s timing but I trust His timing. I trust the Father. I trust Father’s judgment for my life. The Father loves me. I am my Father’s child.
I am my Father’s woman. I will not have friends, associates or acquaintances that devalue, dishonor or disrespect me. I honor myself. I honor the Christ inside of me. I attract people into my life
who honor me and who honor the Christ in me. I am worthy of honor. I will not tolerate abuse of any type from anyone because I am my Father’s woman. I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am single-focused. I am not distracted by the past. I live in the present and I have hope for the future. My previous sins are not who or what I am. Through the blood of Jesus, I am pure, I am clean, I am holy and I am whole. My sins have been washed away. Jesus’ blood has made me whole.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am all woman. 100% woman. I am not limited to my individual body parts. I am more than the individual pieces of my body. I am more than the sum of all of my body parts.
I am not a sex object, something to be goggled over, played with and groped, a toy for someone’s selfish, lustful satisfaction. I respect myself and I will be respected. I am not part woman; I am all woman! I am a whole woman, a complete woman, a fulfilled woman. I am my Father’s beloved. I am a loved woman. I am my Father’s child. I am not rejected; I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s child. I do not identify with my previous poor choices. I identify with the blood of Jesus. I am bigger than my mistakes. I have been forgiven. I am loved. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am a whole person and I live my life in balance. I do not focus on one part of my life to the detriment or neglect of other parts of my life. My life is balanced. I live in balance. In the past I tolerated abuse of various types but no more. Before I didn’t know any better but now
I know better and I will not tolerate abuse from anyone. Today I am whole. The Father loves me.
I am my Father’s daughter. I am a whole person. I am not my boobs or my butt or my female genitalia. I am not divided into sub-parts or subordinate pieces where one piece has more value than another piece. I am a whole person, a whole woman. As a whole woman, my individual parts have value but my parts do not have more value than me. I value, I honor and I respect myself as a whole person. I like me. I love me. I love me with unconditional agapé love. Father loves me with unconditional agapé love. I will honor and respect all of me. I am loved – all of me. The Father loves me.
I am not rejected. I am my Father’s daughter and I forgive myself. In the past, I made many mistakes. I abused my soul and my body. I caused my own soul wounds. I have confessed my sins. Father forgave me and I forgave myself. Sometimes I have flashbacks, memories, snippets from my past. I quietly talk to myself, reminding myself that my previous sins and mistakes are already under
the blood of Jesus. I tell the enemy that he cannot bring up things from my past which have already been washed away by the blood. In the Father’s eyes those things never happened. I am free from all guilt. I am free from all shame. I am a new person. I am free. My Father loves me.
I am beginning to understand that I have some major control issues. I have control issues because I have serious trust issues. These control and trust issues are residue from the drama and trauma from rejections, invasions or violations. [People are obsessive control freaks because of trauma, unhealed wounds and fear.] When these incidents occurred, I lacked control over them and wasn’t able to stop them. What I couldn’t control then, I am attempting to control now but this isn’t fair to my ‘now’ life. The people who hurt me then are not the same people I am attempting to control now. I can’t control others. Trying to control others is self-defeating. People must be free to live their own life. I have been attempting to alleviate the pain from the past by controlling the present.
This hasn’t worked very well. While attempting to find balance and appear normal, I have been causing strife, chaos and confusion all around me. I have been reproducing my internal trauma by recreating it through ongoing, external drama. It’s emotional and psychological tit-for-tat, a game which no one wins. In an unhealthy attempt to hide and run from my trauma, I’ve been pushing other people’s buttons and driving many of those around me almost crazy. My internal turmoil will be reduced and alleviated only through the Word and mature agapé love.
Because of the Word and through the Father’s agapé love, I am learning that I’ve been in pain all of these years. I’ve been emotionally vomiting all over others. It isn’t my heart to be a pushy, overbearing, obsessive, emotionally manipulative control freak but that’s how I’ve been behaving.
Borderline obnoxious. In pain, I caused pain for others. I need to apologize for my behavior. While in the throes of pain and trauma, I’ve been pushing away from me the very thing I need the most – people. Pain often causes you to do strange things. Father’s agapé love will heal me.
Now that I understand why I do what I do, I acknowledge that I need to make some major changes. Today I make a commitment to myself that I will face, deal with and overcome the trauma from my personal drama. I will no longer transfer my unresolved emotional issues and pain onto others. I will accept Father’s agapé love. Father ministers His agapé love and healing through His people. Father will send someone to help me because He loves me. Father’s agapé love will heal me as
I allow others to minister agapé love to me. When they show up, I will Trust the Anointing.
Spoken by the Father, Saturday, December 26, 2009
Completed Saturday, February 6, 2010
Transcribed by Janet Henderson
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
GOD'S BLESSING ON JANET'S TESTIMONY--JESUS ALSO DELIVERS WOMEN FROM SEX ADDICTION
Father, in Jesus Name we thank You that You sent Your Son, the Lord Jesus to save us from our sins--all sins. For Your Word says that all have sinned and come short of Your glory, and if You should mark iniquity, who shall stand. Every sin without JESUS as our Lord and Savior puts us all under the condemnation of the law so that no tongue can boast and every condemning tongue be stopped. Once You do save us, we are to be Your ambassadors to point others to Your love, mercy, and saving grace ONLY through Jesus Your Son.
We are thankful You sent Janet to Prayer House and she has come forward with her personal testimony of Your saving anointing and power. We thank and praise Jesus is still working in peoples' lives--and in OUR lives--to do us good and destroy the works of the devil.
The psalmist prayed that You deliver him from presumptuous and secret sins. A prophet had to point to David, a man after Your own heart, and say “YOU ARE THE MAN”! LORD, we don’t want to hide our heads in the sand and be like the ostrich, whose whole body is exposed for the world to see. Your Word says, if we preach don’t do this, but we do that, who are we to judge another of your servants? We are so grateful You sent Your Son Jesus to save us from our sins and not to condemn us. The condemnation is in not accepting Him as the only Savior for our sins. You also want to us acknowledge, repent, and forsake our sins. You are the only One that has the power through Your Son Jesus and Your Holy Spirit to free us from “pet” sins.
LORD, give this blog Your blessing and may Janet’s testimony encourage those with the same addiction to come to the DOOR and outside in the SONLIGHT and allow Jesus’ Love to expel this darkness. Put Your salt in Janet’s words and may many be thirsty and hungering for Your righteousness and You will fill, for Jesus is our righteousness.
We acknowledge, LORD, whom Your Son makes free is free indeed! Blessed is Your Name. Thank You, Father, in Jesus wonderful Name. Amen
We are thankful You sent Janet to Prayer House and she has come forward with her personal testimony of Your saving anointing and power. We thank and praise Jesus is still working in peoples' lives--and in OUR lives--to do us good and destroy the works of the devil.
The psalmist prayed that You deliver him from presumptuous and secret sins. A prophet had to point to David, a man after Your own heart, and say “YOU ARE THE MAN”! LORD, we don’t want to hide our heads in the sand and be like the ostrich, whose whole body is exposed for the world to see. Your Word says, if we preach don’t do this, but we do that, who are we to judge another of your servants? We are so grateful You sent Your Son Jesus to save us from our sins and not to condemn us. The condemnation is in not accepting Him as the only Savior for our sins. You also want to us acknowledge, repent, and forsake our sins. You are the only One that has the power through Your Son Jesus and Your Holy Spirit to free us from “pet” sins.
LORD, give this blog Your blessing and may Janet’s testimony encourage those with the same addiction to come to the DOOR and outside in the SONLIGHT and allow Jesus’ Love to expel this darkness. Put Your salt in Janet’s words and may many be thirsty and hungering for Your righteousness and You will fill, for Jesus is our righteousness.
We acknowledge, LORD, whom Your Son makes free is free indeed! Blessed is Your Name. Thank You, Father, in Jesus wonderful Name. Amen
Subjects: A Time for Healing, Part 1 & A Time for Healing, Part 2 By by Janet Henderson
Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #645
Subject: A Time for Healing, Part 1
Theme verse: Confess your faults to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. James 5:16
[Monday, May 31, 2010. In Father’s quest in taking us deeper in preparation for lifting us higher there will be unplanned bends in the road, diversions along the path which lead to our ultimate destination.
This sharing is one such bend and diversion, unexpected yet very much needed for myriad reasons.
Father always knows best. In true submission and trust, we must be willing to be open and vulnerable in hopes that our vulnerability and honesty will help someone become all that they can be for Christ. JH]
A Time for Healing, Part 1.
Hi. My name is Janet and I am a sex addict – in recovery. [Since 2007]
That’s right. That’s what I said… I am a sex addict in recovery. If I can recover, so can you. You can!
Why am I sharing this with you? Because I need to. There are literally thousands of pastors and leaders (and others) in the Body of Christ who suffer with this form of addiction. Before we can move forward in power and glory we, the Body, must first be healed. No stones; only grace, compassion and agapé love.
What is my purpose for doing this? To inform the pastors and leaders and others that you are not the only ones who suffer with this and that you are not alone. Many believers live with the heavy weight and carry the shame and despair associated with this addiction. You are not carrying the weight, the shame and the despair alone. We are carrying it with you. We are one. We bear each other’s burdens.
What is my goal for sharing this information? Many of us have been where you are now. We by the
grace of the Father and with much sacrifice and hard work have overcome this addiction. Those of us in recovery know how you feel because we have been there. We know what you feel because we have felt it. We know what you are doing because we have done it. We know what you are going through because we went through it. It truly takes one to know and understand. We understand. We feel your pain and we understand your frustration. You will defeat and overcome this. You will! And we are here for you 24/7.
How can I blatantly reveal my secret to you? It’s time. I can because there is no more shame. It took me years to be able to share this. Actually, this is my “coming out proclamation”. After much healing I can proclaim to the whole world that I am a sex addict in recovery without any shame of what I used to be.
My goal is to help anyone, especially pastors and leaders who truly want help in their healing and recovery journey to be able to reach out to someone who has been there, someone who understands what you are going through. Many of you want and need help in your healing and recovery journey. Help is available
What’s next? Please know that you are not alone. Please do not be afraid to take the first step. Reach out to accept help from someone. Know that many of us understand your tests, trials and battles. Recovery is a journey. We understand when you attempt to overcome but sometimes fall short. You can lean on us. We understand your anger, pain, frustration and shame. We will not turn away from you, we will not walk away from you and we will not reject you. We understand! The blood is working. Agapé love never fails.
We are here for you. We are praying for you. And we agapé love you… No Matter What You Do… J
[Installment #1 with more to follow.]
Spoken by the Father, Monday, May 31, 2010
Completed Monday, May 31, 2010
#Transcribed by Janet Henderson
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Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #646-A
Subject: A Time for Healing, Part 2
Theme verse: Confess your faults to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.
James 5:16
[Monday, June 13, 2010. After sending the last sharing (#645, “A Time for Healing, Part 1,” dated May 31, 2010, during which I revealed that I am a sex addict in recovery), Father began teaching me some common traits among leaders who battle sexual addiction. The purpose of this sharing is to (1) share what I learned;
(2) with the goal of helping those in this predicament better understand what is happening from a spiritual perspective; (3) help others see some of the effects this is having on their life and ministry; (4) offer hope for recovery; and (5) motivate those who need help to get and/or accept the help they need. Change is possible
but each person must be honest, must want to change and must put forth the effort to change. JH]
A Time for Healing, Part 2. Sexual Addiction, Healing and Some Lessons Learned.
1. When pastors or other leaders battle a current or active sexual addiction or other type(s) of sexual sin the primary motivating factor in their life will be fear, not faith. The fear of being exposed is powerful. Father already knows. Father knows everything and He still loves you. Father’s agapé love never fails.
2. What may appear through the natural eyes to be inflexibility or hardness may actually be extreme fear. The fear will have such a vice grip on their life until they are nearly immobile. It may not be a specific fear but a generalized fear of making any move one way or another. Being afraid to make a move in a positive direction, they remain stuck in the negative. They are stuck on the non merry-go-round, cemented in the spiritual quagmire of fear and they don’t know how to get free. The devil is a liar! You can be set free.
3. Fear is the enemy’s stranglehold. We cannot defeat the enemy when we are bound by the death grip of fear. How do you break free from the spiritual quagmire of fear? Begin by being honest with yourself and others. Confront the sexual addiction. Deal with it so you can defeat it. Become sexually pure and spiritually whole.
4. Sexual immorality is a form of spiritual idolatry. The enemy knows this. Just as Father knows the end from the beginning in all things, the enemy knows the ending from the beginning where unrighteousness and sexual sin are involved. The enemy created all darkness. He knows how each type of darkness works. He is their root cause. He knows the harm and damage they can inflict, and he knows their side effects. So does the Father. That’s why Father tells us to stay away from unrighteousness and sexual sins. All sin is sin but sexual sins have a different type of “spiritual side effect”. Sexual sins violate the very core of who
we are as spirit beings since we are the house of the spirit of the Lord. Sexual sins contaminate the “temple.”
5. Sexual addiction will throw off your spiritual equilibrium. Someone battling a sexual addiction is involved in compulsive behavior. “Just say no” doesn’t work with addictive behavior. By grace, during recovery we learn how to yield to the authority and power of the Holy Spirit while Father’s agapé love purifies, heals and restores us. Isaiah 1:25-26; 2 Tim. 2. Then we learn how to live out “no”. Sex addiction is a spirit thing. Recovery is an agapé love thing, a greater power spirit thing. It’s grace, mercy and forgiveness. The blood is still working.
6. The fears associated with the sex addiction will breed confusion, spiritual and emotional constipation, angst, self-protection, pride, anxiety, self-promotion, major depression, and for some suicidal thoughts. There will be loss in varying forms and degrees. Spiritually, many will lose aspects and degrees of their anointing. This is one of the most devastating effects of sexual addiction. Without the anointing we can do nothing. We become unproductive, nonproductive and counterproductive, spinning our wheels attempting to look good but not accomplishing anything.
Deception. What defeats deception? Honesty. Being honest with ourselves, with Father and with others is the place to begin. Being honest about the sexual sin and/or the addiction is the beginning of the healing process. Being honest, open and vulnerable are vital to remaining clean.
7. Admitting that you can’t stop on your own is a major step. This also stops the deception and the pride. Pride will keep the addicted person addicted and in bondage. Admit that you need help, then get some help. Admitting that you need help and accepting help takes courage. Father’s grace is more than enough.
8. A pastor or leader may teach the Word but if they have sexual sin in their life or if they are battling an active sexual addiction, the power, strength and anointing of the taught Word will be minimized. This also applies when someone is addicted to Internet pornography. Plus, someone may add filter software to their computer or remove the computer from their home but this is not enough when battling a sexual addiction. Removing the computer from the home is a physical act but sex addiction is a spiritual issue. This person still needs to confront and deal with the root causes of their addiction. Removing the computer from the home
is a forward step but it isn’t recovery. That’s like putting a band-aid on a flowing gusher. The flow of the gusher needs to be stopped at its source which… It Is Spirit. We defeat spirit with spirit. We defeat darkness with light. We uproot and destroy dark spirit power by a greater light spirit power. Agapé love kills the root.
9. Many people who are battling a sexual addiction will do anything and everything in their power to avoid any type of conflict. Why? It’s because they are already living with extreme internal conflict. Internally they are torn apart, wanting to do right and trying to do right but are unable to do right. They blame themselves
but the cause is spiritual. They are embarrassed, guilt-ridden, ashamed, depressed, fearful, in gross pain and are self-condemned. They beat themselves up and the enemy is beating them up. Because of their internal wars they will not add to their drama by getting involved with external wars. What may appear to others as cowardice, by not getting involved with any conflict, may actually be their attempt to have some semblance of control in their out-of-control life. Emotionally they can’t handle much more. No peace; every day is a battle. [Father knows the end from the beginning. Father will have us intercede for each other as it pleases Him.]
10. When they are talked to about their lack of motion and movement toward fixing the wrongs which exist, this can become a double whammy. Remember, their perspective is somewhat skewed. What is an attempt to motivate them to make some type of movement in the right direction they may perceive as a criticism of them. Others want them to make a decision, one way or another, which they have difficulty doing because of their internal conflicts. Pressure. This person is immovable, stuck in neutral. They feel badly about their lack of movement and the enemy taunts them over it. Accusation and more pressure. This may explain why so many pastors and leaders are walking away from their calling and ministry. Father’s grace is ALWAYS enough.
I can’t help but wonder how many leaders have walked away from the ministry because they suffered with an unrecognized, undiagnosed and untreated sexual addiction. They were too embarrassed to say anything for fear of being rejected by or evicted from their ministry or church. They were too ashamed to admit that they needed help. They were too afraid to ask for help so they just walked away. I believe the Body of Christ has developed in agapé love to the point (as least a large portion has) where we can accept each other, forgive each other and we can still love each other with Father’s agapé love… No Matter What We Do… We can.
11. For the leaders who battle sexual addiction, Jesus has already carried your/our sexual addiction to the cross. Your deliverance, recovery and healing was bought and paid for on the cross. Jesus carried our guilt and our shame on the cross. Jesus carried it all. Get back to Jesus and the blood. Get back to the Father.
Regardless of what you’ve done or what you are doing, Father’s grace is more than enough. Father’s mercy is more than enough. Father’s compassion is more than enough. Father’s agapé love will bring you back from the plight of sexual addiction or any other type of addiction. Learn, grow, develop and accept His agapé love.
12. If you are a pastor or leader who is battling a sexual addiction, what is the #1priority of your life? It isn’t church growth or expansion, building repairs, developing your teaching schedule for the next twelve months, growing the youth ministry, feeding the homeless, fulfilling the church’s vision or praying for an awakening. The priority of your life should be getting free from the sexual addiction. Right now your personal wholeness is more important than all of these other things. Your recovery from a sexual addiction is something that you must do for you FIRST. You cannot minister to others if you are in bondage to a sexual addiction and bound by fear. You cannot minister to others if you are not sexually whole, pure and holy. Father’s grace is enough.
13. I need to add that some leaders who entered the ministry may have entered the ministry to combat their internal feelings and unmet emotional needs. While in ministry they learn that the ministry cannot, nor was it intended, to meet their unmet emotional needs. Those same unmet needs may be the root causes of their sexual addiction. After their recovery from the sexual addiction and having their previously unmet needs met some pastors may not return to the pastorate. Pastoring may not be the best place for them to serve the Body of Christ. This is something each pastor will need to discuss with Father. Father may have something else in store for their life. This may also be part of the reason why so many pastors are leaving the pastorate; they may have been serving in the wrong place (for them) at the wrong time for the wrong reasons and they were miserable. Some pastors/leaders may better serve the Body by shifting into other areas of ministry. That doesn’t make them a failure. They may have been simply misplaced and out of sync with Father’s plan.
14. If you are battling a sexual addiction while attempting to serve as a pastor or leader, you are not happy. For many pastors, ministers and leaders, you are at a major crossroad. Do you continue as you have been or do you make some major quality decisions which will result in a better quality of life for you? Life is too
short to be miserable. If what you are attempting to do just isn’t working any more, talk with a trusted real friend who will be honest with you. LISTEN to their input. If you need help, please get some help. If you want help, reach out for help. You can make better quality decisions so you can enjoy a better quality of life.
15. As ministers we are told that everyone else’s needs should come before our own. This is true but if sexual sin or sex addiction is involved different “rules” apply. Now is the time for you to focus on you so you can get the help that you need so you can be healthy and whole. Unhealthy, fragile Eagles can’t soar and fly high. And, Father will not increase the anointings in/on someone who is sexually impure and spiritually unholy.
How do you recover from a sexual addiction? Bottom line: through the power of agapé love. Father’s agapé love can fix anything and restore anyone. Father’s agapé love will plug the holes in our soul which causes sexual addiction. Father’s agapé love will fulfill all of our deep-seated emotional needs we didn’t receive and heal all of the deep-seated emotional wounds we did receive. Father’s agapé love never fails. [That’s how I got delivered, through the power of agapé love. More details regarding that in the next sharing.]
We may be wounded and broken in parts of our life but we are not defeated. Why? Agapé love never fails. What the enemy thought was a knock-out punch will not work. The enemy doesn’t have any knock-out punches but he doesn’t know that. Why? Agapé love never fails. Brokenness, woundedness, shame, guilt, abandonment, fear, persecution, pain, insecurities, rejection… these things cannot move us and these things cannot stop us. We are more than conquerors in all things through Christ who loves us. 2 Corin. 4:1-18.
If you are battling a sexual addiction, hold on! It is only a temporary set-back. This too you shall overcome. Hold on, baby! Father is faithful. Jesus loves you. The blood is still working. And, agapé love never fails.
Trust Agapé Love. Confront, deal with and overcome the sexual addiction. Then you will be pure and holy. Develop in agapé love and renew your mind. Then you will have stronger character development. Build up your faith. Then you will have the strength, the character and the anointing to tackle ministry issues. Take communion often; it works. Through it all we are here for you and we believe in you. Agapé love never fails.
Resources:
[I highly recommend these DVD series for all pastors/leaders and lay counselors.]
(1) DVD training series: Treating Sexual Addiction, a Biblical Counseling Certificate Program. Training on the causes, the effects and how to overcome sexual addiction. 8 DVDs, 15 lessons. American Association of Christian Counselors (AACC). 1-800-526-8673 or www.aacc.net.
(2) DVD training series: Healthy Sexuality: A Biblical Perspective on Love, Intimacy & Healing. A Biblical Counseling Certificate Program; 5 units, 15 DVDs, 30 lessons. Light University, Center for Professional Development and Continuing Education, a subdivision of the American Association of Christian Counselors
(AACC). 1-800-526-8673, www.lightuniversity.com or www.aacc.net.
[Understanding, compassion, forgiveness, grace, comfort, mercy, tenderness, gentleness and unconditional agapé love.
Spoken by the Father, Monday, June 14, 2010
Completed Wednesday, June 16, 2010
All we have is each other. And, agapé love never fails.]
Transcribed by Janet Henderso
Subject: A Time for Healing, Part 1
Theme verse: Confess your faults to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. James 5:16
[Monday, May 31, 2010. In Father’s quest in taking us deeper in preparation for lifting us higher there will be unplanned bends in the road, diversions along the path which lead to our ultimate destination.
This sharing is one such bend and diversion, unexpected yet very much needed for myriad reasons.
Father always knows best. In true submission and trust, we must be willing to be open and vulnerable in hopes that our vulnerability and honesty will help someone become all that they can be for Christ. JH]
A Time for Healing, Part 1.
Hi. My name is Janet and I am a sex addict – in recovery. [Since 2007]
That’s right. That’s what I said… I am a sex addict in recovery. If I can recover, so can you. You can!
Why am I sharing this with you? Because I need to. There are literally thousands of pastors and leaders (and others) in the Body of Christ who suffer with this form of addiction. Before we can move forward in power and glory we, the Body, must first be healed. No stones; only grace, compassion and agapé love.
What is my purpose for doing this? To inform the pastors and leaders and others that you are not the only ones who suffer with this and that you are not alone. Many believers live with the heavy weight and carry the shame and despair associated with this addiction. You are not carrying the weight, the shame and the despair alone. We are carrying it with you. We are one. We bear each other’s burdens.
What is my goal for sharing this information? Many of us have been where you are now. We by the
grace of the Father and with much sacrifice and hard work have overcome this addiction. Those of us in recovery know how you feel because we have been there. We know what you feel because we have felt it. We know what you are doing because we have done it. We know what you are going through because we went through it. It truly takes one to know and understand. We understand. We feel your pain and we understand your frustration. You will defeat and overcome this. You will! And we are here for you 24/7.
How can I blatantly reveal my secret to you? It’s time. I can because there is no more shame. It took me years to be able to share this. Actually, this is my “coming out proclamation”. After much healing I can proclaim to the whole world that I am a sex addict in recovery without any shame of what I used to be.
My goal is to help anyone, especially pastors and leaders who truly want help in their healing and recovery journey to be able to reach out to someone who has been there, someone who understands what you are going through. Many of you want and need help in your healing and recovery journey. Help is available
What’s next? Please know that you are not alone. Please do not be afraid to take the first step. Reach out to accept help from someone. Know that many of us understand your tests, trials and battles. Recovery is a journey. We understand when you attempt to overcome but sometimes fall short. You can lean on us. We understand your anger, pain, frustration and shame. We will not turn away from you, we will not walk away from you and we will not reject you. We understand! The blood is working. Agapé love never fails.
We are here for you. We are praying for you. And we agapé love you… No Matter What You Do… J
[Installment #1 with more to follow.]
Spoken by the Father, Monday, May 31, 2010
Completed Monday, May 31, 2010
#Transcribed by Janet Henderson
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Kingdom Principles Teaching Series, #646-A
Subject: A Time for Healing, Part 2
Theme verse: Confess your faults to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.
James 5:16
[Monday, June 13, 2010. After sending the last sharing (#645, “A Time for Healing, Part 1,” dated May 31, 2010, during which I revealed that I am a sex addict in recovery), Father began teaching me some common traits among leaders who battle sexual addiction. The purpose of this sharing is to (1) share what I learned;
(2) with the goal of helping those in this predicament better understand what is happening from a spiritual perspective; (3) help others see some of the effects this is having on their life and ministry; (4) offer hope for recovery; and (5) motivate those who need help to get and/or accept the help they need. Change is possible
but each person must be honest, must want to change and must put forth the effort to change. JH]
A Time for Healing, Part 2. Sexual Addiction, Healing and Some Lessons Learned.
1. When pastors or other leaders battle a current or active sexual addiction or other type(s) of sexual sin the primary motivating factor in their life will be fear, not faith. The fear of being exposed is powerful. Father already knows. Father knows everything and He still loves you. Father’s agapé love never fails.
2. What may appear through the natural eyes to be inflexibility or hardness may actually be extreme fear. The fear will have such a vice grip on their life until they are nearly immobile. It may not be a specific fear but a generalized fear of making any move one way or another. Being afraid to make a move in a positive direction, they remain stuck in the negative. They are stuck on the non merry-go-round, cemented in the spiritual quagmire of fear and they don’t know how to get free. The devil is a liar! You can be set free.
3. Fear is the enemy’s stranglehold. We cannot defeat the enemy when we are bound by the death grip of fear. How do you break free from the spiritual quagmire of fear? Begin by being honest with yourself and others. Confront the sexual addiction. Deal with it so you can defeat it. Become sexually pure and spiritually whole.
4. Sexual immorality is a form of spiritual idolatry. The enemy knows this. Just as Father knows the end from the beginning in all things, the enemy knows the ending from the beginning where unrighteousness and sexual sin are involved. The enemy created all darkness. He knows how each type of darkness works. He is their root cause. He knows the harm and damage they can inflict, and he knows their side effects. So does the Father. That’s why Father tells us to stay away from unrighteousness and sexual sins. All sin is sin but sexual sins have a different type of “spiritual side effect”. Sexual sins violate the very core of who
we are as spirit beings since we are the house of the spirit of the Lord. Sexual sins contaminate the “temple.”
5. Sexual addiction will throw off your spiritual equilibrium. Someone battling a sexual addiction is involved in compulsive behavior. “Just say no” doesn’t work with addictive behavior. By grace, during recovery we learn how to yield to the authority and power of the Holy Spirit while Father’s agapé love purifies, heals and restores us. Isaiah 1:25-26; 2 Tim. 2. Then we learn how to live out “no”. Sex addiction is a spirit thing. Recovery is an agapé love thing, a greater power spirit thing. It’s grace, mercy and forgiveness. The blood is still working.
6. The fears associated with the sex addiction will breed confusion, spiritual and emotional constipation, angst, self-protection, pride, anxiety, self-promotion, major depression, and for some suicidal thoughts. There will be loss in varying forms and degrees. Spiritually, many will lose aspects and degrees of their anointing. This is one of the most devastating effects of sexual addiction. Without the anointing we can do nothing. We become unproductive, nonproductive and counterproductive, spinning our wheels attempting to look good but not accomplishing anything.
Deception. What defeats deception? Honesty. Being honest with ourselves, with Father and with others is the place to begin. Being honest about the sexual sin and/or the addiction is the beginning of the healing process. Being honest, open and vulnerable are vital to remaining clean.
7. Admitting that you can’t stop on your own is a major step. This also stops the deception and the pride. Pride will keep the addicted person addicted and in bondage. Admit that you need help, then get some help. Admitting that you need help and accepting help takes courage. Father’s grace is more than enough.
8. A pastor or leader may teach the Word but if they have sexual sin in their life or if they are battling an active sexual addiction, the power, strength and anointing of the taught Word will be minimized. This also applies when someone is addicted to Internet pornography. Plus, someone may add filter software to their computer or remove the computer from their home but this is not enough when battling a sexual addiction. Removing the computer from the home is a physical act but sex addiction is a spiritual issue. This person still needs to confront and deal with the root causes of their addiction. Removing the computer from the home
is a forward step but it isn’t recovery. That’s like putting a band-aid on a flowing gusher. The flow of the gusher needs to be stopped at its source which… It Is Spirit. We defeat spirit with spirit. We defeat darkness with light. We uproot and destroy dark spirit power by a greater light spirit power. Agapé love kills the root.
9. Many people who are battling a sexual addiction will do anything and everything in their power to avoid any type of conflict. Why? It’s because they are already living with extreme internal conflict. Internally they are torn apart, wanting to do right and trying to do right but are unable to do right. They blame themselves
but the cause is spiritual. They are embarrassed, guilt-ridden, ashamed, depressed, fearful, in gross pain and are self-condemned. They beat themselves up and the enemy is beating them up. Because of their internal wars they will not add to their drama by getting involved with external wars. What may appear to others as cowardice, by not getting involved with any conflict, may actually be their attempt to have some semblance of control in their out-of-control life. Emotionally they can’t handle much more. No peace; every day is a battle. [Father knows the end from the beginning. Father will have us intercede for each other as it pleases Him.]
10. When they are talked to about their lack of motion and movement toward fixing the wrongs which exist, this can become a double whammy. Remember, their perspective is somewhat skewed. What is an attempt to motivate them to make some type of movement in the right direction they may perceive as a criticism of them. Others want them to make a decision, one way or another, which they have difficulty doing because of their internal conflicts. Pressure. This person is immovable, stuck in neutral. They feel badly about their lack of movement and the enemy taunts them over it. Accusation and more pressure. This may explain why so many pastors and leaders are walking away from their calling and ministry. Father’s grace is ALWAYS enough.
I can’t help but wonder how many leaders have walked away from the ministry because they suffered with an unrecognized, undiagnosed and untreated sexual addiction. They were too embarrassed to say anything for fear of being rejected by or evicted from their ministry or church. They were too ashamed to admit that they needed help. They were too afraid to ask for help so they just walked away. I believe the Body of Christ has developed in agapé love to the point (as least a large portion has) where we can accept each other, forgive each other and we can still love each other with Father’s agapé love… No Matter What We Do… We can.
11. For the leaders who battle sexual addiction, Jesus has already carried your/our sexual addiction to the cross. Your deliverance, recovery and healing was bought and paid for on the cross. Jesus carried our guilt and our shame on the cross. Jesus carried it all. Get back to Jesus and the blood. Get back to the Father.
Regardless of what you’ve done or what you are doing, Father’s grace is more than enough. Father’s mercy is more than enough. Father’s compassion is more than enough. Father’s agapé love will bring you back from the plight of sexual addiction or any other type of addiction. Learn, grow, develop and accept His agapé love.
12. If you are a pastor or leader who is battling a sexual addiction, what is the #1priority of your life? It isn’t church growth or expansion, building repairs, developing your teaching schedule for the next twelve months, growing the youth ministry, feeding the homeless, fulfilling the church’s vision or praying for an awakening. The priority of your life should be getting free from the sexual addiction. Right now your personal wholeness is more important than all of these other things. Your recovery from a sexual addiction is something that you must do for you FIRST. You cannot minister to others if you are in bondage to a sexual addiction and bound by fear. You cannot minister to others if you are not sexually whole, pure and holy. Father’s grace is enough.
13. I need to add that some leaders who entered the ministry may have entered the ministry to combat their internal feelings and unmet emotional needs. While in ministry they learn that the ministry cannot, nor was it intended, to meet their unmet emotional needs. Those same unmet needs may be the root causes of their sexual addiction. After their recovery from the sexual addiction and having their previously unmet needs met some pastors may not return to the pastorate. Pastoring may not be the best place for them to serve the Body of Christ. This is something each pastor will need to discuss with Father. Father may have something else in store for their life. This may also be part of the reason why so many pastors are leaving the pastorate; they may have been serving in the wrong place (for them) at the wrong time for the wrong reasons and they were miserable. Some pastors/leaders may better serve the Body by shifting into other areas of ministry. That doesn’t make them a failure. They may have been simply misplaced and out of sync with Father’s plan.
14. If you are battling a sexual addiction while attempting to serve as a pastor or leader, you are not happy. For many pastors, ministers and leaders, you are at a major crossroad. Do you continue as you have been or do you make some major quality decisions which will result in a better quality of life for you? Life is too
short to be miserable. If what you are attempting to do just isn’t working any more, talk with a trusted real friend who will be honest with you. LISTEN to their input. If you need help, please get some help. If you want help, reach out for help. You can make better quality decisions so you can enjoy a better quality of life.
15. As ministers we are told that everyone else’s needs should come before our own. This is true but if sexual sin or sex addiction is involved different “rules” apply. Now is the time for you to focus on you so you can get the help that you need so you can be healthy and whole. Unhealthy, fragile Eagles can’t soar and fly high. And, Father will not increase the anointings in/on someone who is sexually impure and spiritually unholy.
How do you recover from a sexual addiction? Bottom line: through the power of agapé love. Father’s agapé love can fix anything and restore anyone. Father’s agapé love will plug the holes in our soul which causes sexual addiction. Father’s agapé love will fulfill all of our deep-seated emotional needs we didn’t receive and heal all of the deep-seated emotional wounds we did receive. Father’s agapé love never fails. [That’s how I got delivered, through the power of agapé love. More details regarding that in the next sharing.]
We may be wounded and broken in parts of our life but we are not defeated. Why? Agapé love never fails. What the enemy thought was a knock-out punch will not work. The enemy doesn’t have any knock-out punches but he doesn’t know that. Why? Agapé love never fails. Brokenness, woundedness, shame, guilt, abandonment, fear, persecution, pain, insecurities, rejection… these things cannot move us and these things cannot stop us. We are more than conquerors in all things through Christ who loves us. 2 Corin. 4:1-18.
If you are battling a sexual addiction, hold on! It is only a temporary set-back. This too you shall overcome. Hold on, baby! Father is faithful. Jesus loves you. The blood is still working. And, agapé love never fails.
Trust Agapé Love. Confront, deal with and overcome the sexual addiction. Then you will be pure and holy. Develop in agapé love and renew your mind. Then you will have stronger character development. Build up your faith. Then you will have the strength, the character and the anointing to tackle ministry issues. Take communion often; it works. Through it all we are here for you and we believe in you. Agapé love never fails.
Resources:
[I highly recommend these DVD series for all pastors/leaders and lay counselors.]
(1) DVD training series: Treating Sexual Addiction, a Biblical Counseling Certificate Program. Training on the causes, the effects and how to overcome sexual addiction. 8 DVDs, 15 lessons. American Association of Christian Counselors (AACC). 1-800-526-8673 or www.aacc.net.
(2) DVD training series: Healthy Sexuality: A Biblical Perspective on Love, Intimacy & Healing. A Biblical Counseling Certificate Program; 5 units, 15 DVDs, 30 lessons. Light University, Center for Professional Development and Continuing Education, a subdivision of the American Association of Christian Counselors
(AACC). 1-800-526-8673, www.lightuniversity.com or www.aacc.net.
[Understanding, compassion, forgiveness, grace, comfort, mercy, tenderness, gentleness and unconditional agapé love.
Spoken by the Father, Monday, June 14, 2010
Completed Wednesday, June 16, 2010
All we have is each other. And, agapé love never fails.]
Transcribed by Janet Henderso
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